I’m Back

As some of you may have noticed, I haven’t been around much recently.
I took some time away to focus on myself and my family.

A lot of changes have taken place in my home life that left me feeling lost and confused.

I no longer knew who I was and what my purpose was here. I had lost the only identity I had known, and gained another.

I went from strong to victim. I no longer knew who I was or who I was supposed to be. I lost touch with the only person who truly knew me. Myself.

So I distanced myself. Distanced myself from the roles and labels I had been given in order to heal and recover from traumas I’d overcome.

I’ve been doing a lot of reflection recently. Reflecting on the life I used to lead and thinking about the life I’d like to lead. Reflecting on the person I used to be and the person I had become.

Over the past 18 months, I have gained many labels. Some I’ve heard from friends and some I’ve heard from others who are not so friendly. I went from Daughter, Mother, Girlfriend, Fiancé to Victim, Liar, Survivor, Powerlifter, Warrior and Goddess. Underneath all of these labels, I’m still me.

So where does that leave me now?

Some changes are going to be made. It’s going to be a slow process but we will get there. Life is beginning to settle down again now.

I’ll check back in soon.

Alaina

xXx

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